随便。。。

我才知道。。。
原来，
随便是不可以随随便便的说出口的。。。

因为，
随便
可以让人如此的抓狂。。。
如此的心痛。。。
如此的愤怒。。。

所以，
当你想讲这句话时，
请三思。。。

期待与等待

期待时，

感觉很兴奋。。

但，

期待久了，

就会变成等待。。。

等待久了，

就变得毫无期待的感觉了。。。

只有等待。。

日子一天一天的过。。

毫无意义的过每一天。。。

而我，

已经不想再有任何期待了。。

因为我的期待已经变成等待了。。。

我能做的就只是继续等待。。。

I have been thinking...

I have been thinking...
of a lot of things these few days,
of my future,
of giving up,
of what should I do next,

What if I do things,
without much consideration...
without thinking the consequences...

I had cried few times these few days...
being moody...
being lonely...
being lazy...
being jealous...
being not who I used to be...

Dun ask me why...
Coz I also dunno why...

Itz I'm thinking too much???

愁。。。

愁

何谓愁？

对我而言，

愁，是说不出的悲伤。。。

愁，是心里头的纳闷。。。

愁，是对生活的无奈。。。

此刻的我，

是愁的。。。

New Chapter of my life...

Its been a while tht im updating my blog d...
There have been alot of exciting events happens around me...
I have decided where to develop my career,
I have decided to stay at KL...
CNY ends, my results is out, im working part time at MIFF...
and the most exciting part is...
Im going to UK in 3 months times...
confirmed d... tickets bought d...
not to study, is for my dear dear graduation
and take this opportunity to go tour around...
There are alot of things happens to me within these two months...

Okay,
i will update all the fun part one by one.
CNY...
I have a lot of fun during CNY...
eat and eat and eat...
no matter where i am...
and i gain 5kg from CNY..
oh ya..
n i go visit my dear's family all by self,
im so so brave... i was so so nervous at that time
his family has treat me so well..
even bring me go eat yee sang at Dragon-I...
hehe...

I went bac to KL on 24 feb coz i got 2 prepare for MIFF,
work there for about 10 days like tht..
i was working part time for MIFF as part of the registration team...
I have alot fun there and meet alot of new friends...
even is tiring and very very hot as i need to wear coat and formal with no aircond...
Im happy to work in MIFF and learn alot over there...

My exam results is out!!
the results was out during i was working at MIFF,
and i received alot of sms asking my results...
haha...
Im happy for wat i get in my exam....
but not very satisfied about it when i know abt it...
but after i know about others results,
i feel i was so lucky to get these result d...
I have nothing to complain about it anymore....

As for my job search,
I actually have found myself a permanent job,
but it was not wat i want, i feel so unsecured about this job...
i will jus do it at the mean time waiting other company to reply me la...

Here comes the most exciting news...
Im going to UK in 3 months times...
to be axact is in 93 days...
Can't wait to be there with my dear dear...
we have not be with each other for about half year d...
I miss him so so much...
I jus confirmed all my flight details and all things in last sunday...
I went to matta fair with my dear dear's family last sunday,
tat day is his mom birthday as well...
after the matta fair, we went to eat seafood for dinner..
his family is treating me very good and im happy to go out with them...

Countdown,
93 days and still counting...
dear dear and UK,
im coming soon...
Yeah !!!!

Crossroads

Im in the crossroads of my life now....

I was thinking alot these few days about my future,
where should I go?
what should I do?
should I stay or go?
the answer is...
I dunno....

Is not that I cannot make a decision...
Is I dun wan to make the decision...
coz is too risky for me and
I dun wan to regret for whatever decision that I have made...
I know every decision have its pros and cons...
I need to sacrifice smth at the end...
but I jus couldn't face it right now...

I was thinking that I will make up my mind after CNY,
but my head jus can't stop thinking about it,
it keep telling me that Im out of time d...
I need to make the decision faster...
I need to settle down all my stuff and myself quickly...
I need to make a wise decision that I won't regret later...

At this moment,
If my bf is here,
I would just marry him straightaway...
Im serious about it...
coz I really dunno how to make this decision d...
and I ald tired of thinking all these pros and cons
of watever decision that i made...

Argghhh!!!
I am tired of these...
and I dun wan to think anymore....

It's holiday!!!

Bac to Penang on 1 Feb...

Start my holiday d!!

Although is my holiday,

I still have to help out my mum and mummy

for the coming CNY...

cleaning,

shopping,

make cookies,

buy this buy that...

Is fun, yet is tiring...

Anyway, im glad tht i am to Penang

I am enjoying every moment that I spent here...

where all my family members are all here...

I really feel the warmness of my home...

from both my sweet sweet home

that give me hapiness all the time...

this is the place where i can count on..

cry out loud wherever i can..

a shoulder where i can lean on

no matter what happen...

I have been eating non-stop

from the moment I bac to Penang...

I have been eating hor liao everyday until now...

haha...

N I obviously gain weight even be4 CNY...

omg!!!

but who cares...

eat liao ka pa sui la...

haha....

the most important is Im happy and I enjoyed it....

Updates!!!

Hi there, 

a quick updates...

I have been staying in my BFFs house 

for almost a week be4 my exam...

Is not tht i dun hav place to stay lar..

Is im going there to STUDY... 

which means...

"S"leep "T"ill "U" "D"idn't "Y"awn... 

haha...

taught by my dear dear....

I actually holidaying in here... 

and having all the laughter while studying here....

and I really get to study and "STUDY" at the same time... 

so good...

I feel i have been spoiled at here...

coz everyday i wake up, 

there is a meal ta bao for me already...

I play games here, 

watch drama here, 

sing K here and lotz more...

I so xing fu... wuahaha....

 

Will having my finals on this coming friday, 

which means i still have 2 more days to go...

and last paper on next tues...

and thats the end of my advanced diploma 

and my study life lor...

Gonna miss the college life alot...

K la, 

Back to study lor...

Gambateh and all the best

for all my friends who are taking exam as well....